Thursday, February 26, 2009
Posted by GrandmaLori at 2:54 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
While doing my usual blog stalking, I came a cross a friends blog titled "apologies". It got me thinking, Im sure there are apologies that I have failed to make that are long overdue. So here goes........First- I realize that lots of times my sarcastic nature gets me in trouble. I have made comments without thinking first and then when I realized that I had indeed offended someone or hurt someones feelings, the damage is done. When it is pointed out to me, or on those rare occasions that I catch myself, Im devastated by it. I hope that anyone reading my blog knows me well enough to know that I never would do anything like this on purpose. Second - I apologize to my kids for not always being there for them. My greatest desire in the whole world is to have a close relationship with them. I know that sometimes I overstep my bounds and as tempted as I am to add that "thats just what mothers do!" I won't. I need them all to know that there is nothing, NOTHING I WOULDN'T DO FOR THEM and that I LOVE THEM. I hope that they each will continue to have patience with me, I am very far from perfect, but know that I am striving daily to be the best Mom (and Grandma) that I can be. Third- I apologize to my many, many wonderful friends that are always there for me, I must apologize for not always doing the same. I have one friend in particular that has been so diligent in phone calls, cards, offers for lunchs and just about anything else I can think of. I truly know she would be there for me through thick and thin. I have many friends that are this same way and would do just about anything for me. For this I am greatful. Thank you for accepting me with my shortcomings and choosing to be my friends anyway. Fourth (and most importantly) - I apologize to my very best friend Kevin. I am overly involved in both of my jobs and this takes me away from home WAY TO MUCH! I need him to know that he is my life, he is my inspiration, my rock in times of trials and sorrow. He is who I speak of when I place quotes on my headers. The most recent one being "My Best Friend is the one that brings out the best in me!" He most definately brings out the best in me. He is my example of patience, love, kindness and most importantly SERVICE! Kevin would do anything for anyone but mostly for me. Just sitting here tonight I realized that I do most of the talking (imagine that, LOL :) I ramble on about what a rough day I've had and he is patient enough just to sit an listen, never complains, never critisizes me, just encourages me to be the best I can be. I apologize for not showing more of the quailities that he has. KEVIN I LOVE YOU!!!!! This hopefully will serve as my public attempt to right some of my many, many wrongs. I truly am sorry from the bottom of my heart if I have offended anyone or hurt anyones feelings. My goal is to be the very best Wife, Mother, Grandma and friend that I can be.
Posted by GrandmaLori at 1:40 AM
Monday, February 16, 2009
Yesterday in Sacrament Meeting the talks were on having missionary experiences. As I listened to the speakers I remember thinking to myself, "I have heard this before, but its just not that easy to bear my testimony to someone that I have (wrongly) pre-determined is not ready to listen". I can honestly say that I never gave it another thought after that. But oh boy the Lord has an amazing way of utilizing us when we least expect it.I had a friend text me early this morning. This happened to be a friend who has had a couple of tough years. There was definately a sense of urgency to her situation this morning. After giving her the information she was inquiring about she commented that she felt that God had forgotten her, when he said that he will not give a person more than they can bear. She went on to say that somehow he had passed her by when it was her turn to have her burdens lightened. I tried to explain back to her that he indeed WILL NOT give anyone more than they can bear, that he knew how strong of a person she was and that he knows what she is capable of bearing. I went on to tell her that everything happens for a reason (my ever famous motto!) and that there are lessons to be learned in every test we are given. With that she texted back with a "Im sorry but, WHATEVER!!! My faith is drowning. Now I know this friend well enough to know when she texts WHATEVER she is MAD! "OH OH!", I thought, "Ive really upset her now. " But you know what, at that point I made a quick decision. I could either play into her "woe is me" attitude or I could try to say something to change her attitude. Keep in mind that this happens to be a friend that Im a little bit scared of. I have caught myself many a times agreeing with her just to keep from having a confrontation. In true LORI style I texted back "Im sorry if I made you mad but that is one area I WILL NOT BACK DOWN IN!!!" I too have had a couple of really tough years, but I have tried to learn the lessons that go along with those trials. Sure I have found myself getting down, but not for long. I really thought that she was going to march right into my office today and let me have it, so I was prepared for that too. I decided that had she indeed come to my office that I was going to sit her down and give her an ATTITUDE ADJUSTMENT! We could compare our tough situations, only to find out that they are probably very similar. I would explain to her that the difference between her bad years and her feelings of hopelesness, and my bad years and still being able to carry a smile is all about attitude. I believe in times of trial we have two choices. We can either have the "I have been passed by attitude", or the "Alright Lord, what lesson am I supposed to be learning from this attitude"? (Of course I talk BIG, but keep in mind had she really come to my office I probably would have ran an hid!) LOL :) My last text of the day to her was to let her know that I LOVE HER and that my hand will always reach into that water of despair and lift her up, I would never let her drown. I guess in a sense I shared a little bit of the Gospel with her. Have you ever had a moment when you felt the person on the other end of the text was crying? That is exactly what I was feeling at that moment, whether that is actually what was happening, I will never know) but I do know that several long minutes later I received a final text from her saying "THANK YOU!"
Posted by GrandmaLori at 11:09 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Posted by GrandmaLori at 1:46 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I had a really good talk with a great friend today about the fact that I don't like to prepare talks. I would rather a talk come from my heart. I kind of feel the same way with my blog. When I set it up, it was with the intent of using it as an online Journal. Many a nights I will sit and just wait for some type of inspiration to come for a topic to post. Well here is tonights inspirational thoughts; have you ever been "Blog Stalking" and commented on someones site only to go back and read it and find that you have misspelled a word? Once your comment goes "live" you read it and feel that "OH NO" feeling through your stomache?That is exactly what happened to me tonight. I was congratulating a friend on a great decision. I don't know about you but for some reason as I comment or post, I feel like Im back in High School typing class and the race is on to be the fastest typer in the class. Most of the time I fail to take the time to reread what my comments say, therefore sometimes my spelling is very, very bad. My final line to her was "CONGULATIONS on your decision!" Now at first glance you might think that said congratulations, so did I! But as I read my post out loud to Kevin I read it exactly how it was spelled (now instead of the feeling of being in High School typing class, I feel as if Im in kindergarten learning how to "sound out a word".) Theres that "OH NO" feeling hitting my stomache. The first thought that crosses my mind is " Oh No what if CONGULATIONS means something bad?" So I do what any after hours blogger would do, I post another comment to giggle at myself and explain that I really meant CONGRATULATIONS and not CONGULATIONS. WHEWWWWW Wipe the sweat off my brow and proceed to my Yahoo home page where I immediately type in CONGULATIONS to assure myself that I hadn't offended my friend. Turns out Im definately not the only "Speed Typer" in the internet world. CONGRATULATIONS is spelled CONGULATIONS over and over again. Cracked me up!!!!!! and hopefully taught me a lesson on re-reading my words before hitting the button. Aren't we taught that in first or second grade? LOL :)
Posted by GrandmaLori at 11:54 PM
Saturday, February 7, 2009
"We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give."~
Sir Winston Churchill
And finally my favorite;
"Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep."
Posted by GrandmaLori at 1:03 AM
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Posted by GrandmaLori at 1:11 AM